DVD # 3004 Changed my life.
Growing up as a young child I didn’t know Jesus. I heard his name but truly didn’t know anything about him. My mom was not saved but sent us to Church with my grandma when we were in town visiting or when she would sit for us. I remember, I was maybe around 9 shortly after my father had died. My sister and I was over my grandmother’s house and she told us to watch TV or play while she went in a fixed our lunch. I recall my sister Tisha sitting to my left on the floor of grandma’s living room playing with her dolls; I was never the doll type of child. So, I turned on the TV and began to search for something to watch when something caught my eye. It was a group of men coming over this huge mountain and I remember the men saying Master or Rabi. I then herd that name Jesus. Remember, I didn’t know much about him, didn’t know his story just heard that when people die they go live with Jesus. I don’t remember anything else other than when you die you become an angel and go live with Jesus in heaven.
At 7 years old, I guess that was enough. Anyways I remember just sitting there watching this movie as Tisha sat and played. I learned as I watch that those men were Jesus and his followers, and still I didn’t know WHO Jesus was. Toward the end I saw this lady crying and the next scene, these men was beating up this other Man. I didn’t know who the man that was getting beat was but even in my young heart I knew that it broke my heart to see this picture unfold. See I had seen many movies where people get beat up and they never touched me like this movie was. I sat there and watched eyes wide open and then I remember saying loud help him. Tisha must of heard the pain in my voice because she stop playing and came to me. She asked what’s wrong; I was speech less I said nothing with tears running down my face. It scared her so bad that she ran in the kitchen to get my grandma. She picked me up and sat me on her lap and asked what’s wrong? I was still speechless. This movie did something to me. They had to call my mom at work because I sat there and cried. I remember my mom coming home and I must of still been upset because I remember my mom asking what’s wrong and I said mom they killed that man. And I told her what I had seen. I don’t recall what happen after that other than my mom telling me that was Jesus. That stuck to me.
Years later my family joins Christ Gospel. We began to learn more about that man they beat and yet I still didn’t learn who Jesus really was until years later. As a teen I moved with my Aunt and although she raised us to go to Church and pray I choose as a Young adult that, that life I didn’t want. I also always knew as a Child that God had a true calling on my life, so I ran and ran for years. About two years ago I came back to Temple Christ Gospel and I now have been running full force toward God not wanting to let go until he love me. I didn’t even want anything from him other than Love and for my then Boyfriend now husband came back from Iraq and joined my son and I at the Church I was happy.
God moved fast with us. We were put in a youth leaders and working with quiz and God must of known to tell Pastor Morgan to put us to work because I know for me those youth kept me coming through those doors. I felt like they were my live link to God and if they were taken from me I’d fall right on my face. God was tanning me for some great things. No one knew my calling but I remember as a Child stranger and dreams telling me that I had a calling of youth ministry on my life. Life was going good. I was going to Church, married, have a great Job I mean it was cool. My life had changed and I lost a lot of friends but I was fine with that I was happy.
Happiness but felt empty. After all that I still felt empty. I was asked if my husband David and I could take the youth to convention. Sure, I was so excited because I was never able to go as a youth, and now that I had a youth of my own and been the acting youth leaders sure. Why not, going to MOTHER HICKS church this is what I need. Oh, yes. We had a great time , went the following year, last year. Came home went to every service and still felt empty. Lord, what is it? I need more, I was to pray like sister so and so, why don’t I understand the word like brother O dude? Why am I not seeing God like Pastor? What’s up? Why do I not feel you? I got touched here and there and I know in my heart that God is good but what’s this feeling?
Well, on 11-30-11 like clockwork was wed night service. I was tired that night and I was not trying to go, but I had the Church laptop and they’re going to need it so I have to go, so I dragged myself there. I prayed before Church not pray I lay at the alter until Pastor turned on light to get ready to start service and put on Mother Hicks DVD. I pushed play and went to sit down. She talked about the unified eye sight, pomoagrate and golden bells that was at the hem of the garment. She didn’t say anything about forgiveness. But when she was talking about the woman with the issue of blood and she touched the hem of Jesus garment and she was healed. The dvd was powerful but nothing about forgiveness. Well driving home that night God said to me , Shanta I love you and I want to pour my love on you, He showed me that when the lady touched him, his love fell on her head. He then went on saying daughter, forgiveness is love and he is love. Get over yourself. I knew right then what that meant. I need to learn to forgive. You see I was molested as a Child and had a sad child hood in my eyes and my mother and I had a lot of anger toward each other, I treated ever man I have ever been with like trash and I didn’t have mercy on my husband.
I had be taught about forgiveness and many years later God use Mother Hicks DVD #3004 to Change my life. The light turned on. That Sunday I released my Mom from everything I head her to, I released my husband and I had to beg for their forgiveness for treating them the way I did, I was set free.
My husband and I are trying to have a baby and the doctors are saying I have fibroids and have to have surgery to remove them and I have been dealing with that for a few months pre paring for the surgery. Not kidding you days after I was set free God showed me that my healing was inside of my forgiveness locked up and when I was set free so was my healing. I’m now just trusting God for my healing and asking for favor in having this baby girl. I’m waiting on it. God is Love. I just wanted to share my story and if you have some forgiveness you better get set free cause in the fathers relm he is waiting on you to just ask him to teach you how. I prayed for the last two years for him to teach me how to forgive and he gave it to me. I love him so much , he set me free of this pain.
I’m praying for twin girls but we will take whatever God gives us. I feel my healing is already in effect. The main thing is not to forgive so you can get something, although you don’t know what that unforgiveness has locked up. It’s about been set free and making God’s name known and that’s all this letter is about not to lift me up but to share my story in making God’s name known and to share that God just wants to love on us. He can not forgive us if we don’t forgive and that’s a fact.
I’M FREE
Shanta Evans has been Changed thank you so much Jesus for giving that powerful word to Mother Hicks, Mother thank you for been a part of my life, I’m changed and set free…..BTY I will let you know when God bless us with our baby and share more Testimonies as they come please pray for me as I pray for you.
Oh Mother Hicks is the leader and founder of the Church I attend. It’s Christ Gospel and we are located all over. E-mail me if you would like to visit one of or locations of need prayer.
Please note forgiveness is a ongoing struggle just wake up and tell God today Lord I still choose to forgive.
