58 blessing

Ok so tonight I went to this woman's fellowship which was amazing in it self and fun all the same, Anyways they talked about faith and knowing that if God had not problems giving up his only son to die for us what more will he do. I mean everything else after giving up your son to die is simple and will follow. I was told God has no budget and that can be in money spiritual, natural whatever you desire it to be. So im going to be sawing my seed in a few weeks of 58.00 and IM trusting and belinvg God for the following. It's going of scary cause I know God will do it. So Im sewing my 58.00 for
1.)health- more so that these nots in my body just go away,
2.)for triplets all girls( Emma Grace, Clare Faith & Brooklyn Hope Evans, all 3 of them healthy )
3.)Davint'e relationship with God in a postive way,
4.)my marriage in a positive way,
5.) my relationship with my mom,
6.)a bigger ,newer house, 5 bed room, big living room, big kitchen, lots of yard space, a work room in the back for David, a nice family room, huge closets, huge master bed room. 2 car garage . A huge game room for the youth another car garage we just make into a game room for our youth group and we can have youth night at the house.
7.)David a better job where he don't have to miss family things and Church but make plenty of money his 10% is more than we have made together in a month, him making about 6,000 a month
8.)my relationship with God just blows me away,
9.) Favor on my job,
10.) I pass the NIC test big times, I make more money that I make triple of what I make now, making about 3,000 a month
11.) A new Suv that's safe and big enough for my triplets and ponta and me and David ,lots of room
12. ) I get and understand the word so I can be certified
13.) Ponta and I get a better relationship
14.) David and I fall in love with each other and we get to travel together on mission trips youth work or young married couples.
15.)for my hair to really grow 12 inches, thicker, healther and longer I need more glory on my head.
Omgiggle this is going to be a step out on faith for me.mmmmmm I'll keep you posted from the date I sew to the dates God start blessing.

The Old me

A party could not go on without me joining. I lived to party and many sins followed I had so many demons attached to my soul I walked around smiling but dying inside. I was raised right but I carried alot of hate, unforgiving and confusion around with me for many years and though all the fault dont lay on my pass it had alot of push in this life I lived. I was molested as a child and my dad had died at a young age, my mom remarried and I hung on Don't like he was the next best thing to a father I loved everything he did and I loved him I was upset that my mom was going to marry him but I was going off my sisters feeling but shortly after I went on ,y own feeling and Don.l and I became close she was it and I loved everything about him after many years of thinking what went wrong when did we drift and I remember living in Austin my mom and Don't had a baby together and I got in a fight with Daniela like sisters do, Daniela was way younger than I was ut that was Don'l child. we were outside playing and we were playing flipping around I don't remember the details but Daniela got hurt and he got mad to this day im sure he wont say it but thats when things went wrong but hours later when he found out I remember I was in the shower and he wanted me to come out so he can talk to me about it I didn't open the door until my mom told me to and he was yelling and blablabal anyways I remember going to my room shouting the door and he came in and sill mad he took my dads picture the only picture I had of my dad and said I didn't need it my mom loving Don'l like she do and scared of him she went alone with it did I tell you my dad was dead yea he was anyways from that point on my life went down hell and I just didn't care. Men couldn't be trust and Id never forgive my mom. My life was all about party drugs and sleeping around and all the time I was out of pontas life and for that I will never forgive my self. I'm sad I allowed my pass to control my life. I lived to drink and I got drunk and drove drunk and my life spiritual life was not even in line with what God wanted for me and I didn't care. I seen, did, and said anything and I hated like I hated my self but you can  only tell by my life style because I showed on the outside that I had it all together and I loved my self. God protected me from so much. I lived in my car, I had to sleep with men for a place to stay and I was not in my child's life but i masked it all. I was living my life in a world grave. for many years this went on nothing changing the same thing in and out, Then I got married to this wonderful guy christian man and i will spend the rest of my life getting over him, he had real love for me put I pushed him away I didn't want the church life that he wanted but he loved me still and I'm always going to be sorry for it. He was it he was the man I think God wants me with and I did it my way thats why I lost him and im paying for it now.